Feeling Strangely Fine

2 Jul

It’s Friday.  Two weeks ago today, I was loading my life in a U-haul.  I was crying from pain, frustration, fear but feeling courage like I’d never known before.  Courage because somewhere in my bones, I knew what I had to do.  Courage because somewhere deep inside burned a hope that thrust me forward when all I really wanted to do was crawl in a dark corner and hide from the rest of my life.

When I set out that Saturday morning, I wondered how long it would take to not feel broken anymore.

I have the day off today.  I have a long list of to-do’s.  But I started out at Barnes & Noble to use some free Wi-Fi and reconnect to the world.  The first blog I RAN to was Passionista!  (No offense to the other blogs I read, I just knew she must have posted the July Mix already and I needed a music fix)

Sure enough, it was up and I started falling in love.  (I have a long list of new downloads now!)

Here I am.  Sitting on the 2nd floor next to a big window, sipping my favorite drink, watching the rain fall, and feeling a peace that I wasn’t sure I’d be able to feel again.  This is what my Heavenly Father wanted for me.  This moment.  To be able to see the beauty in the world again.  I recognize this girl.  She feels like me.

Who says you can’t go home again?

3 Responses to “Feeling Strangely Fine”

  1. mandal July 2, 2010 at 6:32 pm #

    What a perfect morning! I love times like that. And thanks for the heads up about passionista. I am always looking for good music!

  2. karen July 2, 2010 at 7:38 pm #

    I am so glad you've got this time and cleansing! And another thanks for the heads up on the new music source!!! Heading over now!

  3. Ana July 15, 2010 at 12:19 am #

    I have something for you on my blog. Stop by to pick it up!

    Ana
    http://www.veganana1.blogspot.com

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