Looking Back

A beautiful Corpus Christi morning

Last weekend, I was working on the blog. I was mostly going through old posts and categorizing all of the uncategorized ones.  My OCD has been kicking in now that I’m blogging again semi-regularly.

As I was going through some old posts, I just happened to stumble on some from exactly two years ago.

I don’t know how to describe what it felt like to read about where I was two years ago.  It’s surreal and heartbreaking and enlightening.

I read this post first.  I totally forgot that this time two years ago, I was right in the thick of our infertility issues.  I had just undergone surgery and been told by my Reproductive Endocrinologist that my best bet was inVitro.

There’s a good chance that I’ve healed some.  There’s even a chance that my situation has changed drastically.  I know I’m still dealing with PCOS, but so are thousands of other women who have babies all the time.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I still have hope.  I feel like I will be a mother.  Even if it’s not to my own biological child.  But I think there’s still a chance for me.