Expectations

7 Sep

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Hey, guess what?  I moved a week ago.  One looooooooong week ago.

It’s been tough.  I’m not even going to lie.  Let me start by telling you about how I thought I accidentally poisoned both of my dogs.

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When I got to my new place, I removed a package of mouse/rat poison from in between the fridge and stove.  I looked to make sure I didn’t miss any pieces but obviously didn’t look good enough.  When I got home from church Sunday, I found a pellet in my bedroom.  My stomach sank to my knees.  Google, phone calls to vets, and prayers kept me from losing my mind. We are out of the woods now.  If they ate anything, it must have been a very small amount.  Thank heavens.

Then I started my new job.  I think my new co-workers expected me to know more than I did.  Maybe I expected to know more than I do.  Maybe I know more than I realize.  I’ve been with this company for nearly 2 years, but in a completely different role.  I’ve seen/heard everything that I’m now responsible for, but it’s a different thing to actually do it yourself.  That being said, I had what I considered some success.  I interviewed a number of candidates, filled a number of job openings and even started building relationships with some clients.

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I dropped my phone in that toilet Thursday morning.  First time I’ve ever dropped a phone in the toilet, but I digress.

I was starting to feel pretty good about things until yesterday.  This whole situation is naturally stressful.  New home, new city, new job…  For a routined person like me, it’s difficult.  I knew it would be, but the eternal optimist in me also wants to believe everything will be peachy.  I’m sure that’s why it was so upsetting when contention showed up at work yesterday.  Just when I was wondering what I was doing here, I got a call from the owner of the company.  He gave me a little ray of hope, which was followed by a terrible afternoon.  I’ve cried and prayed and cried and prayed.

Here’s the thing.  Everything is going to be okay.  It’s going to take time.  It’s going to take patience.  It’s going to take obedience and prayer.  But everything is going to be okay.  There’s something for me to learn here.  I’m sure of it.  I know my Heavenly Father loves me and he is providing for me.  As long as I have that knowledge, I have everything I need.

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